over the weekend we celebrated holden's first birthday with a handful of close family and friends at a local park.  the weather was perfect and holden ran around chasing balls with his lacrosse stick and digging in the ice buckets with his friends.  i thought he would be one to dive into a sugary treat and we were looking forward to a cake smashing, but he seemed to be confused about why we were trying to get him to eat a monkey and got frustrated that he was unable to pick the entire cake up in his hands.  the day was wonderful and i felt incredibly lucky and grateful to have so many people around us that love and care for holden.  i still can't believe that my little baby is a year old, that a year has passed since he entered our lives, and thinking about it makes my heart ache a little bit.  time seems to be moving too quickly these days.