mama wore: h&m wool hat, h&m faux leather jacket, free people voile trapeze slip, free people seamless romper, go jane boots, forever21 necklace

daddy wore: h&m flat hatrvca new bars t-shirt, h&m pants, converse

little man wore: random hoodie (similar here), h&m fur hatpeep t-shirt, h&m pants, native howard slip-ons

some days, a happy coincidence of events occurs: holden takes a long afternoon nap meaning he is able to stay up a little later than normal and traffic isn't stop-and-go meaning that dustin gets home from work a little earlier than he usually does.  these two things happening in the same day mean that we are able to catch the last hour of light together at a local park.

this week, that happy coincidence just so happened to be an everyday occurrence.

so each evening as the sun slowly sunk beneath the horizon, we chased and laughed and played, amidst bare trees and fallen leaves, invigorated by the brisk evening air which was just cool enough to warrant fuzzy hats.

and on the holden development front, he has taken to babbling 24/7.  whereas last week ba ba meant basically everything (say spider "ba ba", say daddy "ba ba", say water "ba ba"), this week his words actually sound like the real words, as in we can tell exactly what he's saying.  so far he's said love you, yellow, spider, dada, owl, cow, mooooo (amongst a few others).  it may not be perfect english per-se, but he is suddenly using a bunch of different sounds with the exact right intonation.  and he doesn't stop talking. he explains everything he is doing and just chats with me all day long.  i'm pretty sure that talking makes him a real toddler.

also....i'm pretty sure that i need these boots in turquoise too.  i mean they are kind of too cheap (and amazing) not to get a pair in every color.



mama wore: anthropologie dip-dye button-up, free people vegan leather shorts, target booties

little man wore: diy dip-dye ombre t-shirt, target leggings, minnetonka moccasins

over the weekend, holden got his bottom right molar and a bottom eye tooth, and it appears that the remaining gummy space in his mouth is going to erupt in teeth any minute.  his mouth looks swollen from the outside and i can only imagine how it must feel to have a bunch of teeth break through all at once.  for the most part he has been taking the pain like a champ, but he has his moments when i can tell that he is in pain and frustrated, and when i ask him "what's ouchie?", he points to his mouth.  this recent bout of teething is causing him to be a little restless at night and want mama's comfort a little more than usual, and i'm having a hard time coping with being woken at night (the fact that i go to bed after midnight every night probably isn't helping or may be the real problem at hand).

it's funny how quickly we forget what it's like to go without a full night's sleep, how quickly we forget what it's like to be woken frequently throughout the night, and how quickly this interrupted sleep affects you.  so far, i have almost burned down the house twice, leaving the the oven on all day and leaving the curling iron on for a few hours.  and these mishaps have occurred after mere week of slightly arrested slumber.  i've found myself wondering how i survived those early months of holden's life?

or perhaps it's not just waking up in the middle of the night, but the combination of the teething that is impeding my nighttime sleep and the lack of afternoon downtime i've had in the last week due to a play-obsessed boy refusing all afternoon naps that is causing my brain to not function properly.  at the same time that he began waking up at night due to teething, holden determined that he no longer wants or needs an afternoon nap.  he will literally point to the door and say something that sounds like "out? " to which i say no and continue attempting to rock him to sleep.  there are windows of time when he seems tired, but after resting his eyes for a few moments, he will suddenly get a spurt of energy and pop up off my chest in a fitful of giggles.

does this mean that he is transitioning to one nap?  is this the age (13 months) that they make the transition from two naps to one?  if he is transitioning, do i need to hold off his morning nap until later in the day?  or could all of these sleep changes be due to teething?  any other mamas have any insight?


p.s. i dip-dyed a random t-shirt that was in holden's closet to match mine.  although not as ombre as i would have liked, i think it turned out pretty well.  what do you think?



while i initially wanted holden's birthday party to have an adventurous, boyish theme, like where the wild things are, i decided that since this was holden's party, i should probably go with a theme that he would like and appreciate.  he has always loved animals and i knew he would love a party that was filled with them.  i thought i would share a few of the party details

1.  the birthday boy himself

2 - 4 the invitation i designed.  animals parading on the front, confetti on the back.

5. confetti paper plates

6. ombre striped wooden forks and spoons

7. felt birthday crown

8. wooden restaurant high chair (that was going to be thrown out) spray painted metallic gold

9. picnic tables covered in white kraft paper with ribbons as table runners

10.  plastic animals from the dollar store spray painted metallic gold parading down the tables

11.  blueberry vodka lemonade cocktail

12. birthday hats made out of cardstock, fuzzy balls, and ribbon

13.  homemade confetti cupcakes.  plastic animals spray painted gold and glued to toothpicks as cupcake toppers

14. painted plastic animal photo holders

15.  cardboard letters spray painted gold; wrapping paper used as tablecloth

16.  homemade applesauce cinnamon monkey cake, a healthier alternative to the a real cake

17. a bunch of my best friends from college (holden being the first little addition to our group)



over the weekend we celebrated holden's first birthday with a handful of close family and friends at a local park.  the weather was perfect and holden ran around chasing balls with his lacrosse stick and digging in the ice buckets with his friends.  i thought he would be one to dive into a sugary treat and we were looking forward to a cake smashing, but he seemed to be confused about why we were trying to get him to eat a monkey and got frustrated that he was unable to pick the entire cake up in his hands.  the day was wonderful and i felt incredibly lucky and grateful to have so many people around us that love and care for holden.  i still can't believe that my little baby is a year old, that a year has passed since he entered our lives, and thinking about it makes my heart ache a little bit.  time seems to be moving too quickly these days.



on wednesday, my little baby turned one.  he woke up in the best of moods, squealing in delight and showering us with kisses, as though he knew that it was his birthday.  much to his surprise, he walked out of the bedroom to balloons, a tassle banner, and a few presents from us.  new toys hold holden's interest for maybe a day max before they are lost amongst the ever-growing pile of forgotten toys, and therefore we have spread out his handful of presents over the past two days so that he can truly enjoy each one.  dustin stayed home from work the past two days so we have spent our time celebrating holden turning one as a family and reveling in the fact that one year ago holden entered our lives and rocked our worlds.



holden and i had a mini photoshoot this evening.  i seriously think i may be in love with every single photo from today's session, but these are a few of my favorites.

mama wore: brandy melville flag heart tank, random dress (from my college days), vintage boots

little man wore: grovia cloth diaper, random gumboots a few sizes too big

our family began in august. the entire formation of my little tribe of four happened throughout the month of august, each member assimilating into my life at different years all in the same month and the weight of the gifts that i've been given in this life are making my heart heavy and full.

first up is the pup's 8th birthday on august 3rd.  he came into my life when i was a junior in college and he has been with me through everything.  i know that the sudden lack of attention in the past 11 months haven't been easy on him and he has been such a trooper with all of the changes that have been going on in the past year that i think we're going to make this birthday a special one for him.  he deserves to be king for a day.

then, on august 7th, i married the love of my life and we celebrate our two year anniversary this month.  the past two years have been nothing short of amazing and it's hard to believe that two years have already gone by.  our wedding day was romantic, ethereal, and magical, and our life together has continued to be all of these things.  our wedding day was one of the best days of my life and we watch our wedding video on a regular basis to bring back the emotions of that day (it's one of the best wedding videos here).  while we make a continuous effort to show appreciation for each other on a daily basis, we have a few special celebrations and getaways planned.

lastly, on august 22nd, we will celebrate our golden child's first birthday.  this past year has been a whirlwind and i am still coming to grips that a year has already gone by.  since the day holden was born, the only thing that i have wanted to do is be with him every second of every day, and i have pretty much done that.  being at home with him is the best job i have ever had and i have honestly never been happier.  holden came into my life and shaped it in ways i never could have imagined.  there is no way to put into words what he means to me and the love that i feel for him.  i have started planning his birthday party for the end of this month, a simple, fun event filled with family, friends, and a lot of love.

these three own my heart and make me who i am today, so there is a lot to celebrate this month.  who knew that love could be this overwhelmingly wonderful.